Just Wandering...

Okay, I was just doing some thinking today.

I have NEVER been even CLOSE to thin, or a healthy weight. EVER! {okay when i was little maybe, but I have been overweight since I was around 9-10ish}

What will it feel like to be "not huge"? I have no idea! I have just been really trying to imaging myself as a healthier, happier, thinner person and I really cannot come up with a visual image.

To me, this is shocking. It's almost like I am diving into an unknown identity. I guess this is why there are many support groups and counselors, and that is why Dr. Walfish told me I would need to see one after surgery. I am guessing that this kind of thing is what starts happening before surgery, and after. Identity.

If you are thin, could you picture yourself being obese? I bet you can't. The same way I cannot really grasp the concept that I will be close to "normal".

Anyhow, just random thoughts for today.

*Skinny Dreams of Skinny Jeans*

~Elizabeth