Saturday's Video update

What is running through my mind?

Typically, I am one who is rational when it comes to important things like this. I tend to think, re-think, and then think some more about all of the possible outcomes that different decisions can create.

This time, I feel like I am missing something... Like there is one thing that I forgot to do, or look up along the way. I cannot pin point it, and maybe it is my mind's reaction to me being so nervous or something. I do not know...

I have had some negative feedback from some people, but that is not impacting me really at all - as though what they think would really matter to me at this point? NOPE! I have been ridiculed all of my life, so now that this time is coming for me to have a BETTER life and a better QUALITY of life I am not letting them get to me.

Lately, I have been sitting here really trying to soul search...

What am I going to accomplish five years down the road? ten years? twenty?

All of this, my future planning, is really playing into my way of thinking when it comes to how this surgery will change my life. Although life is not a map written in permanent marker, I would like to think that I at least have some concept of how it will go. I feel like within a few short years doors will begin to open for me, and I will begin to love myself more as I change from within to reflect the changes that will happen externally.

For now, I am just looking at the short term...
Surgery, then school probably, then another baby (hopefully)... who knows? :D

What I CAN say is this: I know that I have a lot of blessings coming my way, and God has not been short on blessing us here lately and that is for sure!

Thank you all who have continued to support me through all of this, and I will post as soon as I am able to do so following surgery! :D

Two Days!

Okay, so I actually created this video two days ago but I am just now getting around to putting it up!

Check it out!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PVbjTZsG_X4&feature=youtube_gdata_player

8 days!

10 days!

Ten days left and counting!

Now is when every possible thought will begin racing through my head I imagine...
As of right now, I am not too nervous... Just contemplating the tereafter.

Mentally,
I still cannot grasp the whole "me being smaller" concept... I don't know what it is about the human mind that sort of blocks us from being able to accept the reality to come - even if we have never experienced it. It is so strange. :)

Anyhow, I will only be in the hospital for 23 hours according to the information I recieved at my Pre Op class. This was pretty good news to me... I do NOT do well staying in hospitals for extended periods of time.

Hopefully all goes well the Wednesday with my EGD, then itll only be a week until the big day!!!

With that said, Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers - I truly appreciate it!

While I am at home recovering, if anyone is interested in chatting I am all for that too!

*Skinny Dreams of Skinny Jeans*

~Elizabeth